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Monday, June 28, 2010

      Ok, I switched my storyline to http://www.joshfreeman.org/storyline.htm.  It's 10:20am now, It's Monday, a new week.  The moon is leaving full and going towards the last quarter and the new.  That was some crazy wild stuff building up to this full moon, which ended as a night at the mall walking around, coming back here, and cleaning my apartment more.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

      And, I need to get a grip on things.  I'm writing the storyline, or this storyline at http://www.life-union.com/storyline.htm.  You can also get to it by going to www.wampumworld.com and clicking the Storyline link on the left side of the webpage homeapge or page in general. :).

Friday, June 18, 2010

      Back here for the night.  It's 12:42am.  Celtics lost to LA.  That doesnt matter so much to me though.  It would have been nice if they won, but I want to do certain things myself.  I gotta finish cleaning up my apartment.  And then figure out what to do come sept 1.  I am not enjoying my time here in this apt once again.  I know what I want, but how to get it.  I want to go to Holland.  I'm blocked from doing things I want right now.  This sucks.

     I wake up, it's 5:07 am now, I woke up maybe a half hour or at least 20 minutes ago now.  Same thing, I want to go to Holland.  My apartment's almost clean now.  I have to finish cleaning this as best as I can first.  I have a lease here until August 31.  I'm just really isolated and can't even be loud here.  This does not work for me.

     And there's people I'm connected to right now that distract from what I'm trying to do.  They have some sort of upper hand with certain things, that I have to reverse.  I don't like how things are going with this. 

Thursday, June 17, 2010

      I feel like things are going in very slow motion here.  Well they are.  I have this doubles partner for my Middleborough Tennis Association this summer, which I don't really know.  And the first four matches cancelled.  That's just weird.  Bad vibes and bad communications there.  Again, i'm up early, and nothing to do.  I have to get to a place where I can drive my system a lot more, a lot harder, and a lot faster.  I got a bunch of old people and a bunch of slowpokes in my way.  It's like when I'm driving down the road or doing something, and someone is purposefully going extremely slow right in front of me just to piss me off.

     Well, I have a tennis match today against Tyler Schofield.  I'm really not too sure of who he is.  Jacqui at the tennis club tells me that he's from middleborough high school and that I should win the match.  I'm also about 220 pounds right now, which is about 40 pounds over my tennis weight of about 180 pounds or even less.  I just don't get anywhere near the exercise i should be getting, mostly sitting around bored. 

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

      I have to figure out what is going on here.  I woke up around 4:15am, just before the birds start to song, they are singing now.  The sun is coming up in a half hour to hour.  I'm isolated here in this house, or more like barn.  The guys in the house complain if i make noise.  nearly 2 weeks ago now I went to new york.  Time just moves along. 

     A lot of these people surrounding me and who I am even spending time, just don't know me as well as they might think they do.  I have to spend some time and break through this as best as I can.  It is very isolating though.  And some who may not think they know me that well actually do know me very well.  It's a certain spirit thing that I know about and sense, but I just can't put my finger on it especially where I live.

     It is 4:34am.  I have been waking up early like this since December 2006, and I think I finally know what is going on.  But exactly why I am not sure, and what to do about it I don't know.  One thing that I do know is that I do not like having to just wait around like this.  But I also don't know what to do. 

     There is a gym in East Bridgewater that opens early.   

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

     Things just boring around here.  I'm exhausted and not sleeping good.

Sunday, June 13, 2010

     Ramnes, and how this works.  100 vir.  1 rex.  1 celer.  500-800  celeres.  But the 100 vir.  I don't know how else to say it.  Sabine Rapto.

Friday, June 11, 2010

     I've bumped up the energy level again.  One thing though I notice is that its still a funny energy.  I need to balance this out sooner than later, or in reality, as soon as possible. :).

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

     I got the tennis channel yesterday.  I'm watching a re:wind about the int'l tennis hall of fame.  gabrielle sabatini having a ceremony with steffi graff and about one of the opens, maybe the us open.  wimbledon prime time june 21st - june 30th presented by mercedes benz.  1-800-petmeds.  Here is the china open from some year being played on.  djokovic vs.  cilic, sounds like chilich and dyokovich.  I need to get a grip on the past few years and get more stable.  I'm not sure that some of these indians and people in general have their best interests in mind for me.  In many ways, I kind of think that they don't. 

     And these girls, I'm not sure that they really do care, even though I do.  I need a caring girl for my needs finally.  40% incline to -6% decline for th enordic track.  800 260 8996.  simulates earth's terrain.  run through central park.  run the boston marathon.  www.nordictrack.com i fit live with jillian michaels.  milian ramey escape on a tennis venture north south east west, destination tennis.   grass court in the middle of the desert.  www.tennischannel.com/schedule  tiebreaker time, 2nd set.  rolex.  sony ericsson wta tour.  atp500 tour.  Thinkpad.  Chinese letters or symbols.  Latin letters.  Arabic numbers.  4 - 2 djokovic 2nd set tie breaker best 2 of 3 sets for china open.

Monday, June 7, 2010

I went to New York last week. Thursday and Friday. I took off from here at 6am. I woke up at 5am, and took an hour to pack. I got to New York at about 2pm. And I took off from New York at about 4pm the next day on Friday.
George VI of the United Kingdom visited President Franklin Delano Roosevelt at his house in Hyde Park, NY. Well, Roosevelt gave him an invitation to visit. His reign is 11 December 1936 – 6 February 1952, and he lived Albert Frederick Arthur George; 14 December 1895 – 6 February 1952.
And all of this vanished for some moment in time. Looking west over the Hudson River. And couldn't see the river, but knew it was there. I again have to stay out of the gym, and find some way to gain my strength back, and do a relaunch if at all possible. 6am Thursday to midnight Friday, this is 18+24 = 42 hours.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

     There is one thing for certain, is that some things are not certain, or many things are not certain.   I'm not sure if the music phase is over, or if it is just round or phase II.  I keep having false starts.  Not sure if I'll ever have a real start, or a start, I'm thinking about the Circus Maximus.  but maybe because of yesterday i missed the Taunton River Festival, which is at the latitude north of the circus maximus. 

     I did drive out there which is extremely rare, and not something I want to do anytime soon.  I did like to see nicole though.  Last time, I was in Hartford, had a car and a phone, and just didnt have the energy to.  Was New Year's 2006/7, and i just sat in my room, as I'm doing now.  Who knows if it would have been good or not.  If the years and time following would have been good or not.  It seems to be the past, well it is the past now, but still fresh in my memory. 

     I still have my uncia. 

     I did have a sense that I would have to freeze myself again.  Or bring my systems to a near standstill.  For some reason, I just can't power up as I want to.  My planned power up is with this uncia.  It is a different phase.  I was very in the present with this girl, but somehow my time gets distorted.  It's a fast speed getting things done, doing things, the like. 

     I went for Elise, she seemed to fall off the boat.  I went for Nicole, she seems to have fallen off the boat.  I'm not sure if anything will work out, but I sure i sure do hope so.  Maybe this is the end of the era of the au pairs.  Maybe is an era of something new.   But it's a very hard energy.  A lot of time went on, and I was just not responsive.  I really have no idea why, but I just feel far away now.

     Ten years are later from seeing Anke and talking to her at the Treadmill at the Bridgewater Fitness Center.  One thing of these BFC girls is that they consistently reject me.  They are not interested in tennis.  They are very good looking.  And overall we just dont get along.

     I initially joined here after the coast guard academy.  I had started learning to play the guitar, and is a very sing songey type of language i have with these people.  the Pleiades sisters, teachers for the infant Bacchus.  These girls maybe represent these sisters.  And me as Bacchus, is possible.  together wtih the Hyades sisters, who bring rain, togehter with Nysiads girls, they are the tutors of Dionysus and Bacchus.  I miss these girls, there still is not one for me.  I am alone still.  They are also the Muses, daughters of Jupiter, again who nurse Dionysos.  I just really miss this girl. 

     And still I think about Nicole.  And this movie we saw, Prince of Persia Sands of Time.  Where a person can go into the past for a short while and fix a mistake to alter the present.  I was doing this in New York.  And when I was at the same places as before with Nicole, I still did not say what I wanted to say.  Thus the present is not as I want it right now.  Maybe there will be a third time coming up.

Saturday, June 5, 2010

       It is the aftermath now.  The comet is retreating, or has passed, who knows when to return.  It's a very strong energy.  And it feels very dark now.  So far all the passes, has drastically altered my course, or set me out in a motion, which I still do not have a resting place, a headquarters, an expansion spot.

     December 16, 2006.  Ante Dia VI Kalends Ianuarius.  This is what this is, as the New Moon is December 20, 2006.  25 Kislev 5767.  So this is December 25 of the roman calendar.  And most of the people who were around at this time, scattered.  Is some strange energy, I can't quite place my finger on.